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| forget me now |
| 05.04.04 (10:09 am) [edit] |
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iT'S difficult when no one really understands how you feel. It's hard to stop crying when it doesn't really matter when you stop.... things will never change. I was encouraged by certain people i will forever be grateful for support... but i can't help being confused. i'm not sure what will lift this dark cloud of sadness away from me.... i trust God, i really do, but i'm just really sad. I want to be happy. It makes me sad when people look at me like i'm worthless.... like everything i've done has no value because i got sick. Life is so unfair. I wish i had the courage to confront them all. I wish i had the strength to keep my tears from falling when i remember how much of a loser i am. I'm never good enough... never good enough for anything good. But yet all my faults are magnified to the point there is no way of reclaiming myself worth. so this is what elisa nucum, karen may and chris dolan was telling me. I am so angry..i am so sad... i am so confused. nothing matters...my kindness and concern and help for others don't mean anything....all that matters is that i got sick and missed work.... and that my friendship is not strong enough for anything.... i'm not important...i understand...i understand the values this world looks at...then i'd rather be not of this world...I want out.... i just want to disappear...to be nothing but a faint memory... i want to be forgotten...
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posted by: pwrgrl (reply)
post date: 05.07.04 (1:12 pm)
Don't get your self down!!!
posted by: pwrgrl (reply)
post date: 05.07.04 (1:13 pm)
And you don't want to do any of that!!!!! (Trust me!!)
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